real busy lately...hence me not posting. life's a bit of a blur. im on my sixth week of school and it feels like i've just left home...at any rate, im loving it here. it definitely feels right. lots of opportunities...and im definitely growing a lot. had a wonderful weekend visit from THE Jason Kraeger...first new life person i've seen in six weeks....miss you guys.

in other news...im going to be spending SPRING BREAK 06 in Pass Christian, Mississippi. woot woot. im going with Cru to do Katrina clean-up and whatnot. im really looking forward to it. all cash donations welcomed. =).

I'm not sure when im gonna be home...hopefully within the next few weeks...

post me some love =) ...and anything going on at home

here's something for my fellow nerds to consider...

think about this quote as applied to the second law of thermodynamics.

"All that is necessary for the triumph of evil is that good men do nothing." -Edmund Burke

any takers?

real busy with classes...etc

watched the state of the Union tonight...I'm usually not one for politics, but ask me about my thoughts.

in other news...i talked to Jason tonight. was real good...it always helps me think clearly if I can get my thoughts out there (even if they are not exactly coherent) ;). i think everyone should have a good rough draft friend....to tackle life's most pressing questions. just make sure they're patient and can read in between the lines (and/or pages);) thanks Jase. you're an awesome friend and person =)

im seeing more and more that you don't really know yourself until you are "squeezed." while it is almost always uncomfortable, it can be incredibly rewarding. the obvious fear we all have is that if we are put in a situation that is uncomfortable and we have no control over it, we'll be exposed...our weaknesses, shame, etc. it's amazing how control and fear can rob us... ...what we fail to realize is that, in the true sense of the word, our heart is good. we have been given a heart of flesh for a heart of stone.....but.....that wonderful word.....it is not until you are sqeezed that what is in the heart can truly be seen. there is something about facing pressures beyond our control that disables our (self) armor...but the times when i have felt the most naked are the only times i have seen my true self. it seems like theres a whole web and matrix of "stuff" clouding the way to your "heart" that you only get to see it once in a while. the amazing thing is, once you see it you might actually rfind that what is sqeezed out of you is something very profound and beautiful. that seems to fly in the face of most christian theology...the heart is good? no. no. the heart is deceitfully wicked...right?


hope i didn't lose you all...when God is speaking stuff to me it is almost always in rough draft format...

please talk to me about this stuff...give me your thoughts...exercise that cranium...

"Who can map out the various forces at play in one soul? Man is a great depth...the hairs of his head are easier by far to count than the movements of his heart." -Ausgustine


this sums up life for me pretty well. most of the time i have no idea what i'm really thinking or feeling. like life is on auto-pilot and i'm just trying to make sense of it all...exhausting

then, here and there i get to see...
as seeing from a mountain on a clear day

you can see what this is all about.
that there is more to life than homework and money (thank God)

if only for a moment...it's what keeps me ticking =)


back to the grind
kel

i thought i'd give a bit of an update...since thats what journals are for, right?

classes are looking pretty darn tough...so my posts might start getting a little more sparce. two of the classes are also graduate level...i guess the time has come to astound the world with the full potential of my genius....or not...currently im feeling a bit under the weather...i've got a cold and i feel pretty weak. on a brighter note...

we had the first campus crusade meeting tonight and it was very relieving. not completely like home, but the worship is great...they even did a coldplay song...yeah....

so things are going well here
miss you all very much

kel


p.s. anyone caught using the words ninja, betty, bob, or kidlet in any comment henceforth will be subject to immediate DALTETION!!!

so...i feel a bit out of place tonight...i think im the only one on campus who is not in love with basketball...

at any rate...everything considered, i'd say its been great so far. had the day off today...settled into my new home. it is much nicer than i had expected. plenty of room and some privacy. sure beats a dorm. classes start tommorrow. im really looking forward to getting in the swing of things.

other than that there are no real cohesive thoughts going through my head. just a mix of all sorts of thoughts and feelings. lots to take in and lots to think about. i think my head is just playing catch up. it'll be quite an adjustment no doubt. all i know right now is that im here and i know its where god wants me. that's enough to keep me afloat for now...


that being said...a big (WOOHOO!!) goes out to Chet and Jill and to Ninja Bob (and it's devoted fans)

new email: kdhaigh@syr.edu
address: 210 Small Rd. Apt #7
Syracuse, NY 13210

wallowing in this sea of deception
i strain to see the reality
that slips between my fingers
of losing light from stars that shine
i am cradled by wave's great night
and here i lie...here i lie....zzzzzzz


i thought i'd start out with a bang.

so anyway...kel is on livejournal in hopes that he can keep you current with all his latest happenings and deep contemplations of life, love and loss. he is also going away to college in two days...and turning twenty one in one day.

prizes for the first 582 livejournal friends.